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Maggie OFarrell Ë 9 read & downloadNot get my sneakers on ast enough I ran out the door without a jacket to get a little Frommers Irreverent Guide to Walt Disney World fresh air and exercise Now I very rarely listen to audiobooks Don t get me wrong I think they are aantastic option to take in even reading than is otherwise possible with our busy lives Unfortunately I am not cut out or the experience most of the time I can t do two things at once I cannot do laundry prepare dinner dust the urniture or drive a car while ocusing on a story My mind starts to wander if I m not actually looking at the words myself But I have on occasion tried to train my mind to be a better audiobook listener and so I downloaded this memoir by Maggie O Farrell and got moving I was instantly hooked From the moment Ms O Farrell shared her encounter with a creepy stranger on a deserted ootpath I Who's There on Halloween? fell in love with her words I was mesmerized by her stories of near drowning experiences arightening childhood illness a heartbreaking miscarriage and the harrowing ordeal of taking care of a child with life threatening allergies Along with her brushes with death we also learn a bit about her life and her love of reading and writing She shares her joy of travel and the restlessness that drives her mad when in one place Jurisdiction for too long she longs to get out and see the world I am desperateor change endlessly seeking novelty where I can Hip Pocket Sleaze: The Lurid World of Vintage Adult Paperbacks find it I completely get thatThe structure of the memoir is non linear in time with each essay titled by a body part or systemollowed by a year This was not at all confusing and I was wholly engaged throughout I often Mookie: Life, Baseball, and the '86 Mets found myself reflecting on the vulnerability of human life Just how often do we have our own brushes with death I imagine that sometimes we may not even be aware of all of them I suspect it is best not to mull over this uestion of near death too often or one could become rather morbid Fortunately Ms O Farrell does not take us off in that direction either If youear this memoir may take on a preachy tone no need to worry as that s just not her style I have a strong hunch that she is just happy to be alive and wishes to live her life to the Cartagena (A Vintage Short) fullest extent possible Nowor a uick note on the narration itself it was Clawback fabulous Inact part of the appeal of the entire experience or me was the narrator s voice Sometimes I orgot that it was not the author speaking to me directly Maggie O Farrell is a brilliant storyteller Her words Sugar in the Raw: Voices of Young Black Girls in America feel genuine her writing style is elegant yet not overembellished You might assume and understandably so given the title that this book is somewhat depressing Yet it is not Yes these stories recount moments ofear confusion and sadness But at the same time they are uplifting and hopeful Life is meant to be lived despite the odds and the setbacks This book bedazzled me and I highly recommend it if you are at all drawn towards memoirs Actually even if you don t typically read this genre I suggest you give this one a try It certainly made a convert out of me I plan to move up of the memoirs on my list as well as some of O Farrell s Cooking for Company fiction writing which I have yet to discover I swam in dangerous waters both metaphorically and literally It was not so much that I didn t value my existence but that I had an insatiable desire to push myself to embrace all that it could offer I am aan of Maggie O Farrell Novels and love her descriptive writing Her story telling is uniue and Empire of Sin fresh Her latest book is totally different as it s a memoir that is uirky interesting honest revealing and vividTold through 17 near death experiences that the author experienced throughout her life youind yourself reading with bated breath as O Farrell draws you in with words and descriptions that make the reading experience very real and poignant At O Farrell s near catastrophic childbirth a mysterious man in beige steps in with an unexpected kindness She writes When he took I have read three of her novels and count Maggie O Farrell as one of my Factory Girls: From Village to City in a Changing China favorite writers and I know I have to get to those that I haven t read This memoir is as beautifully written as her novels O Farrell shares with us some very personal experiences memories of times in her life when she was in danger close to death As in her novels she had meeeling and thinking about the complexities of life sometimes the danger that lies near all of us While she writes about things that happened to her some of these are things that others can relate to miscarriages the heartbreaking emotional difficulty of acceptance and understanding illness that impacts your life a child s illness and some things that most of us have not likely experienced being mugged at knifepoint the impending danger of being stopped by a stranger in a deserted road We see a vulnerability that we can recognize in ourselves as she reveals so much of her eelings and thought processes All of this making me so very glad that she had this moment And one night in the monsoon season when the rain is a constant lulling hum outside the windows when our clothes the windows the pictures are growing mould in the humidity and it s too hot to sleep
when I have been reading subversive versions of European olktales I get the urge to put down words II have reading subversive versions of European Chicken, Chicken, Duck! folktales I get the urge to put down some words I upind a pencil open an exercise book at the table and as Anton sleeps I start to write Unless a memoir literally shifts me changes my thinking transforms me in some major way I tend to retreat to my standard 3 star ratingI didn t eually enjoy each story in this collection It s a mix collection Inspirations for me Aew stories elt embellished In the middle of the book I started to eel as if I had enough A couple of the stories Move Over, Victoria--I Know the Real Secret: Surrendering the Lies That Bind You to the God Who Frees You felt a little narcissistic but then Ielt sad or MAGGIE S SICK CHILD HECK I s sick child heck I awful Poor Mrs. Rigsby for Maggie too when she was a child in the hospital petrifiedbut overall I m kinda 5050 about this book However I believe one story will stay with meorever The Pirates, Ships, and Sailors first one The veryirst story was rightening absolutely chilling a story hard to shake Maggie was hiking when a man with binoculars came up to her SHE KNEW INTUITIVELY that man was dangerous and that her life was in danger I learned rom Maggie The way she handle her situation was worth the entire book War Made New: Technology, Warfare, and the Course of History: 1500 to Today for me Wow she was a pro and it saved her lifeI read carefully taking mental notes I do a lot of hikes alone on uiet trails I was nervous as hell reading Maggie s hiking story MAGGIE SAVED HER OWN LIFE BY REMAINING CALMI only hope I m never in that situation but if I am I hope I could handle it with the same success Maggie did It was still a chilling creepy awful storybut whew as in THANK GODor Maggie I liked the scienceartistic symbolic body parts at the start of each chaptergiving a clue into the body part most affected in the story about to be told yet that same structure began to A Boy in Winter feel a little monotonous after awhile especially when some of the stories were less interesting than others Overall 33 34 rating Love heriction so wanting to read her memoir was a no brainier A different take Frost at Midnight for sure as she recounts the near death experiences she has encountered in her life Reading this made me think of all the mishaps I have had that could have turnedatal Something I think we all share to various degreesHonest and open are the two words I thought of while reading this The things she shares private moments secrets she had held close but now share Yet it her experiences with motherhood that impressed me the most The sadness of miscarriages joy of holding a newborn the terrible concern and the ever preparedness she has at all times with her daughter The Princess Baby, Night-Night frustration and yes so much love Hoping others see beyond the surface to the wonder her daughter is so poignantly told As always when next I read heriction after reading these details of her life it will be with new eyes Hope she has a new book in the works and I thank her The Pentagon Papers: Making History at the Washington Post for sharing this very personal collection of essays with us her readers 4 We are all of us wandering about in a state of oblivion borrowing our time seizing our days escaping ourates slipping through loopholes unaware of when the axe may Improbable Destinies: Fate, Chance, and the Future of Evolution fall This is the memoir of Maggie O Farrel documenting the near bushes of death that have been riddled through out her life Each chapter introduces a different time and age of the author and her experiences grazing near to death We are witness to the encounters with death that the author has enduredor example near drownings childhood illness that left her bedridden and with little chance of survival an encounter with a man on a remote On a Cold Road: Tales of Adventure in Canadian Rock forest path a mugger with a machete pressed to the author s throat She importantly documents her daughters daily brushes with death with a severe allergy that means constant hospitalisation and constant vigilance in spotting anything in the vicinity that can cause her daughter slare up and possible deathThis was moving and deeply compelling it was a hard book to put down I made sure to set my paces to ully capture the author s eelings and thoughts The writing in some chapters was lowing smoothly despite the author describing herself panicking and drowning or example Some of the language really chilled you to the bone and was similar to reading a thriller Nini for example specifically when writing about the encounters with the man on the path or the man with a machete This book really sent my heart racing on several occasions and I just read on curious toind out and how the event unfolded This is a brilliant memoir of capturing human vulnerability near death experiences and making every heartbeat count It also makes the reader step back and analyse any brushes of death they may have personally encountered The book also gives rise to a new empathy and understanding to motherhood as well as the realistic rates and taboo subjects of miscarriages and still births that is still I Love My Dad (Disney Princess) freuent today and those mothers whose children may have a life threatening condition and the love that they hold to protect their children in any wayTo accompany this electric book there were detailed illustrations of body parts nothing graphic at the start of each chapter These were so intricate and just added to the memoir making it relatable and intimat. Ctric unforgettable this is the extraordinary memoirrom Costa Novel Award winner and Sunday Times bestselling author Maggie O'FarrellIt is a book to make you uestion yourself What would you do if your life was in danger and what would you stand to lose. Flight, Vol. 7 first child because I was a star gazer baby myself that put my mum in extreme danger during labour There is also a beautiful reference to Karen Blixen s Seven Gothic TalesO Farrell s writing strikes youreelings your heart I always eel uncomfortable with hospitals I ve been to one only once thank God and all the Heavens and even reading about them makes me eel terrible Therefore the experience of her illness as a child was terrifying to read as was the behaviour of her classmates This verified once again my conviction that children are often the most heartless creatures in the universe She describes the era when the HIV nightmare began vividly and ull of compassion In many cases it is evident that women ace extensive dangers because of our sex As I often say it is the absolute loss of any trace of euality As long as we are unable to Camp Rex feel secure beyond any doubt while we re walking in the street euality is non existent It is an empty word written in such charades as so called legislations just so the governments have the opportunity toeel politically correct It is a utopia a wish that will never become a ulfilled realityThe impact of the language she uses is such that even though I knew she survived in every incident my heart was pounding in agony Then you start thinking what if What if things have turned out differently What if this happened to me What would I do It definitely makes you think about living and making every moment count as morbid or detrimental as it may sound How ragile and at the same time how strong our bodies are Her thoughts on miscarriage should be read by every womanThis is a book you will live in Your Touch of Enchantment feelings your thoughts your entire self will experience it I know it changed me even a small portion of me I know that I need not complain about mild headaches seasonallu or the common cold The strength she shows in coping with her daughter s challenges as it happens with every mother who When Dads Don't Grow Up faces similar situations is a source of endurance and strengthor all of us I don t think that a reader can Miles from Kara finish this book and remain untouched The realisation of our own mortality and theact that there are no limits despite the moments when contradictions hit us like an earthuake The only limit is this stranger with the dark clothes waiting in every corner We are all of us wandering about in a state of oblivion borrowing our time seizing our days escaping our Pee Wee Scouts treasury (Pee Wee Scouts, fates slipping through loopholes unaware of when the axe mayall My reviews can also be ound on I have never read any of Maggie O Farrell s iction It is not or lack of good intentions I have certainly heard good things about her writing which is what made me jump at chance to read an advance copy of this brief memoirAt irst blush the way O Farrell has chosen to organize her memoir is odd Each chapter is High Heat focused on a near death experience The chapters are out of chronological order And while each chapter deals with a particular experience it meanders to many other parts of O Farrell s life gracefully connecting everything togetherIs O Farrell unlucky or lucky depending on how you look at it than most people In some ways she is unlucky most notably she had a very serious childhood neurological disease and her daughter has severe life threatening allergies in other ways we could probably all pull together a string of similar experiences to most of those that she recounts that may have turned out deadly if things had worked out differentlyBut I absolutely loved reading I Am I Am I Am O Farrell s writing is straightforward but intricate and engaging There is no self pity or pretension as in so many memoirs Somehow while taking the reader through many unnerving and sad experiences O Farrell emerges as someone with a genuine appreciationor lifeDon t be deterred by the organizing theme in I Am I Am I Am Also don t read it looking or thrills in near death experiences Read it because it s beautifully written and recognizably ordinaryI also just noticed that it s the second book with lowers growing out of a heart I ve read this year and it s only the middle of January This one was much better than the last one and the cover is a great illustration or the eel of the bookThanks to Edelweiss and the publisher or an opportunity to read an advance copy OMG OMG OMG Pogo stick timeDear Maggie O FarrellI m bouncing high zigzagging through your 17 brushes with death Barefoot because my socks were knocked off I can t stop Yep I m downright manic What an amazing memoir you wrote One of the best books I ve read this yearI am I am I am absolutely in love with your book I can t help it that I m stuttering It s that or remain speechless which isn t my style My brain is on ire Matchy matchy My head your language Oh your tone The way my brain is wired your sentences are electricity both jumpy sparks and smooth rivers of A treatise on the law of marital rights in Texas fire I know I know I sound all dramatic but it s yourault I m talking this way I love all your commas your lowy narrative lists of how and why bullet points not reuired Punctuation or maximum impact without being overly dramaticI m glad you stuck with brushes I m glad you called your events brushes with death because Lots of Hearts frankly if you had called them near death experiences I wouldn t have believed you No one almost dies 17 times Plus I might not have picked up your book because near death experiences usually are woo woo you see god or angels or ghosts or white or light and that s not my thing Calling them brushes with death is perfect Shiver shiver I m scared You sure have some scary stories missy And such a variety Your several scary hospital stories are super sad and Ieel or you because I know one of them will be with you orever Your three scary water stories are harrowing and really wet and cold and they make me glad I t play in the water any the play in the water any The Scary Strange Men
Stories Had My Heart Pumping Fast It Doesn T Seemhad my heart pumping Why Diets Make Us Fat: The Unintended Consequences of Our Obsession with Weight Loss fast it doesn t seem that you had than one such encounter Tell me I don t just like to watch train wrecks please I wondered why I was so jazzed to be watching your train wrecks What kind of jerk am I Am I just lookingor drama That s not cool And then it hit me as I was reading I knew that you would survive in the end That soothing thought is so unlike what occurs when I read a novel where I have no idea whether the good guy is going to make it I love it that you don t play the victim even though you are one The times when you are reckless you cop to it and try to understand it Good stuffThanks Don't Hex with Texas for having lunch with me Well that s what itelt like anyway I might as well have been sitting across rom you in a caf gulping down your stories which were so heartfelt and honest vivid and human It would have been a long lunch or sure Your writing conveys so much emotion which is what makes great artForgive me my gush There isn t one story that I didn t like not one Your book reads like a novel yet eels so very personal I love it that you don t sensationalize events that would have easily allowed you to go overboard I love your imagery I love it that you re so self aware and so insightful about the human condition I love how you introduce each chapter with a classy and intricate drawing of the organ or body part that the event affected very clever I love it that there is even suspense I was so wound up wondering how in hell you would get out of scary jams I love the pace You sometimes give a hint of what happened and then you talk about your past a while before completing the story I never elt like I needed to get back to the action The idea of your book is so completely uniue I Pajama Party feel like the book concept gave me the best possible reading experience I got to go to scary places but I knew you d be okay Wow you re the ueen of narrative lists Remember how I mentioned your narrative lists There s one long sentence with a zillion commas that sums up your twenties your words are so carefully chosen your succinctness noted and appreciated Here s a snippet of that sentence the dreary rentallats the uncertain and mind shrivelling jobs the late night urban wanderings the last buses the monthly travel passes the skipped meals the ill judged boyfriends the pressing calls made Bunco Babes Tell All from phone boxes I ll probably reread it several times over it s so good Paragraphs like that one leave me in aweWhere did your stories take me missy They took me down memory lane where I plucked my close calls outor closer examination Yes I did have one Scary Strange Man story Yes I did have one scary hospital story Yes I did have scary motherhood stories I still Every Day by the Sun: A Memoir of the Faulkners of Mississippi find myself searching my brainor other close calls And like I thought as I was reading your stories what if one or two actors had altered the close calls and had left me deformed incapacitated or dead It made me think about luck ate ear unfairness randomness About what if s about bravery vs stupidity It made me think about how a mere second can make a difference between life and death Why did you let them give you two covers I m jealous I know there are a bunch a people who got a cool cover with a heart on it I on the other hand got a cover with a big ugly brown eather that splat blocked out part of the title A nasty smudge wipe it off please As an ex editor who needs all letters and words to be strong and visible I claim I got ripped off I really really wanted the heart coverAll I can say is where have you been all my life I will be running to your other books no doubt about it because This is what makes me obsessed with reading This right hereThank you or listeningAn avid new an We are all of us wandering about in a state of oblivion borrowing our time seizing our days escaping our Close to Hugh fates slipping through loopholes unaware of when the axe mayallOne day early in February we had a rare day of sun and sixty degrees after having just endured subzero temperatures the week before brrr I could. Ty determined to make every heartbeat countA childhood illness she was not expected to survive A teenage yearning to escape that nearly ended in disaster A terrifying encounter on a remote path A mismanaged labour in an understaffed hospital Shocking ele. Oooh goodreads choice awards semifinalist or best memoirautobiography 2018 what will happen At the time I gaze up at the sky the birds the Toy to Toy (Disney/Pixar Toy Story 3) fast moving clouds and I am thinking about the denseorest behind us about how I do not want to be dragged in there not at all I do not want to see the trees closing over my head Charity feel the scratch and pluck of bushes against my skin my clothes the cold damp of the ground in there My thoughts are very simple They pulse through my head let me go let me go not theorest not the ground pleaseconceptually this is wholly original and a bit chilling a memoir told through all of the author s near death experiences with a total of seventeen chapters that s too many right i became outraged at capital d death on her behalf or cat and mousing her around so much go pick on someone your own size etc etc but it s not uite as dire as it appears the inal chapter is about her daughter whose severe Catch and Release: Trout Fishing and the Meaning of Life food allergies reminded me of another memoir Don t Kill the Birthday Girl Talesrom an Allergic Life so it s really only SIXTEEN personal near death experiences which is much reasonable slightly lives than a cat considerably than most humans and some of the situations in those sixteen chapters are nearer to death than others going or an AIDS test after your partner has been unfaithful is a ar cry rom having a machete held to your neck although machete to neck should be weighted to count or at least two especially if it is not the irst time a killer has threatened your life via that slender stalk and just some riendly advice after three near drownings you need to take the hint and stop going into the water it does not want you inside of it and is saying no the only way it can it s a very novelistic approach to writing memoir both the novel ty HA of the approach and the style of the writing which is vivid and descriptive expands and contracts in Fashion Faux Paw focus wraps anecdotes around other anecdotes and switchesrom Pillars of Light first to third to even second personrom chapter to chapter although the premise seems designed or thrills it s a much reflective than sensational approach she s very pragmatic about her experiencesThere is nothing uniue or special in a near death experience They are not rare everyone I would venture has had them at one time or another perhaps without even realising it The brush of a van too close to your bicycle the tired medic who realises that a dosage ought to be checked in inal time the driver who has drunk too much and is reluctantly persuaded to relinuish the car keys the train missed after sleeping through an alarm the aeroplane not caught the virus never inhaled the assailant never encountered the path not taken We are all of us wandering about in a state of oblivion borrowing our time seizing our days escaping our Solibo Magnificent fates slipping through loopholes unaware of when the axe mayallthe chapters are titled after the parts of the body made vulnerable by or responsible Cheetahs' Craving for each close call with a nice olde timey anatomical rendering of said parts i ve chosen a pull uoterom each chapter to entice you with her writing chops or the shivery allure of the situation there s a lot packed into these stories and i definitely recommend this one as an intriguing alternative approach to memoirNECK 1990 I am careful to use strides that are confident purposeful but not New People frightened I am notrightened I say this to myself over the oceanic roar of my pulse Perhaps I think I am French Impressions:: The Adventures of an American Family free perhaps I have misread the situation Perhaps it s perfectly normal to lie in waitor young girls on remote paths and then let them goI am eighteen Just I know almost nothingthis story was really Driving Hungry: A Memoir frightening but it reminded me of an even horrifying close call story which you need to watch here LUNGS 1988 At sixteen you can be so restless sorustrated so disgusted by everything that surrounds you that you are willing to leap off what is probably a The Museum of Us fifteen metre drop in the dark into a turning tideSPINE LEGS PELVIS ABDOMEN HEAD 1977 I remember that I kept going I kept moving myeet kept powering on through the mountain air as if nothing could touch me nothing bad might happen if I could just keep going keep running keep movingWHOLE BODY 1993 The air is Hard to Hold filled with screaming with curses with prayer A man with blood coursing out of both nostrils starts to yell in a language I don t understand gesticulating wildly Drops of blood scatterrom his ace to mark the seats the ceilingNECK 2002 We had money in our pockets and bags than we d ever carried before at any time in our travels The man takes it all rom us pulling it out A Bedtime Yarn from the various places in which we d stashed it We hand it to him in exchangeor my neck its arteries its tendons its muscles its trachea its oesophagus Ignore Everybody: and 39 Other Keys to Creativity for it all to remain in its current unbreached stateABDOMEN 2003 Theloor was awash with blood and people were running It is never a good sign I ve Your Money Ratios: 8 Simple Tools for Financial Security found when medics runBABY AND BLOODSTREAM 2005 You will watch your body backtrack go in reverse unpicking its work the sickness recedes your breasts shrink back your abdomenlattens your appetite disappearsLUNGS 2000 I straighten my swimwear watch the water drawing the blood off my skin and whirling it away as if it has need of it as if it has some purpose in mind or itCIRCULATORY SYSTEM 1991 Because why not Why not
LET A MAN YOU VE NEVERa man you ve never a man you have no reason to trust throw a istful of knives at youHEAD 1975 There was that other time she says when you didn t stay in the car Do you remember CRANIUM 1998 She is aware of having dodged something of having pulled her leg out of the trap once again at the last momentINTESTINES 1994 What came out of me was streaked with blood mucoid meaty in textureBLOODSTREAM 1997 Infidelity is as old as humanity there is nothing about it you can think or say that hasn t been thought or said before You go back and back over the days the conversations the walks you took wondering why on earth you hadn t seen it how you could have missed it how you could not have known The pain of it is interior humiliating infinitely wearyingCAUSE UNKNOWN 2003 Right now my son is nine weeks old and I m Wampeters, Foma Granfalloons finding my way blunderingorward with this new job this new life Right now I m in France or reasons that are no longer clear to me trying to breastfeed in a hot car by the side of the road Right now Will has disappeared over the dunes to look at the sea and two men are rustling their way out of the maize ield on the other side of the roadLUNGS 2010 He can t swim is what is going round and round in my head He can t swim and I ve brought him out here because of what someone told me He can t swim and I ve brought him out into deep sea on the advice of an idiotCEREBELLUM 1980 I gather Sir James Steuart's Principles Of Political Economy from all the listening in that I am to have what is called a CAT scan The name of it is a comfort to me conveying as it doesur paws whiskers a long and curled tail It will rom what I can glean take photographs of my brain and these will tell the doctors how to make me better I like the sound of this
"cat scan the "scan the some manner of eline involvement the making betterDAUGHTER the present day We never leave the house without her medication her emergency kit We know how to inject her how to administer cardio pulmonary resuscitation how to recognize the signs of low blood pressure respiratory distress urticaria the onset of cardiac The Serpents Daughter (Jade del Cameron Mysteries, failureI know I must nod calmly when people tell me they understand exactly how Ieel because they have a gluten allergy which makes them really bloated whenever they eat bread I know to be patient and genial when I have to explain that no it s not OK to bring that hummus into our house No it s not a good idea to give her a little bit to get her used to it No please don t open that near her Yes your lunch could kill my childand although thankfully this Who Needs a Desert? following uoted portion does not end in a near death experienceor the author although i can certainly envision it going that way i just wanted to include it because what it describes is what i imagine heaven to be what i hope will be waiting or me after my axe alls My mother instructed us not to touch the kittens not yet and we nodded gravely As soon as she had gone back to the kitchen however I told my younger sister to keep watch at the garage door Obviously I reasoned to her there was no way I wasn t going to touch these kittens No way at all The keen joy of plunging in your hands and lifting up all our kittens in a mewing writhing mass and burying your ace in their aliveness their softness their miniature aces their never walked on paws how could I orgo thishow could ANYONEcome to my blog There is nothing uniue or special in a near death experience They are not rare everyone I would venture has had them at one time or another perhaps without even realising it How difficult it is to write a text about a memoirNo matter if you liked it or not no matter whether you shared the writer s views or not a memoir is a testament of someone s heart and soul and how can anyone dissect it so light heartedly This memoir by Maggie O Farrell is one of the most poignant powerful altering reads we will ever experience Therefore if this review looks to you a bit all over the place I apologize because I never succeed in explaining my eelings adeuately Once you read this book I don t think you will ever view life through the same lens as before I m trying to write a life told only through near death experiences 17 times when Death s shadow came too close to her and her children 17 times when she ought with all her might and succeeded in defeating the enemy who was in a hurry to claim one soul much too early She lets us into her life by revealing her most vulnerable moments Hidden in these memories are shocking details about dangers that came out of nowhere thoughts on how love started a boyfriend who was an egoist to the core a horrible doctor who served a misogynistic Victorian view of helping women with their labour her saviours the people who made sure she would return her beautiful Protocol Zero family There are so many aspects of O Farrell that I admire and marvelled at She is such aree spirit her wander. I AM I AM I AM is a memoir with a difference the unputdownable story of an extraordinary woman's life in near death experiences Intelligent insightful inspirational it is a book to be read at a sitting a story you Club Sandwich finish newly conscious of life'sragili.