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خداوند الموت: حسن صباح life and cover relationshipsesbianism her periods of depression and melancholy solitariness hence the title emotions of all types and most especially nature My prior knowledge of May Sarton was Girl in the Blue Coat limited and picked up on her via Aubrey and the 500 great books by women many thanks AubreyOne of the things I really enjoyed about the journal were her descriptions of the natural world most especially of her garden and the flowers and creatures in it Flowers and their scent were clearly very important to Sarton The garden is growth and change and that meansoss as well as constant new treasures to make up for a few disasters A gray day but strangely enough a gray day makes the bunches of daffodils in the house have a particular radiance a kind of white Hunter Kiss light From my bed this morning I couldook through at a bunch in the big room in that old Dutch blue and white drug jar and they glowed I went out before seven in my pajamas because it Doctor Sleep lookedike rain and picked a sampler of twenty five different varieties It was worth getting up early because the first thing I saw was a scarlet tanager a few feet away on a Karma's A Sexy Bitch: Choose Your Own Erotic Fantasy Adventure lilac bush stupendous sight There is no scarlet so vivid no black so black When I am alone the flowers are really seen I can pay attention to them They are felt as presences Without them I would die Why do I say that Partly because they change before my eyes Theyive and die in a few days they keep me closely in touch with process with growth and also with dying I am floated on their moments She also writes with great compassion about the wild creatures who inhabit her world and the stories about the feral cat who makes a home nearby are heart rendingSarton writes her prose as only a poet can and with great honesty and vulnerability and pulls no punches about her own faults and frailties her worries about her work and its reception and her Mythological Beasts Turned Me Gay: Three Book Collection: (Mythology Erotica) love affairs She also periodically makes comments about current affairsike the death of De Gaulle and will then drop in a sentence or two about meeting Virginia WoolfIt reads very easily despite feeling fragmented at times Sarton is engaging and thoughtful It was a real pleasure to read Sarton s writing amazes me It s not everyone who can say Hey I m going to shut myself in a house for a really This All Encompassing Trip: Chasing Pearl Jam Around The World long time and write about watering my plants and my depression and it s going to be really beautiful and interesting But Sarton makes it happen The elouence and introspection that makes up this book is absolutely fascinating 199 Kindle SpecialMay Sarton was born in Belgium her family moved to Boston Massachusetts as WWI approached She began writing poetry at age twelve she also wrote novels andater in Scouts life a children s book When she started this journal which was written over the period of a year she was battling depression and examing different relationships in herife This book won t be for everyone although I savored every word If you enjoy solitude nature flowers and deep insight I encourage you to read it I will definitely read it again because it is cathartic On a personal note I began journaling in 2001 because I needed an outlet for all I was feeling after the terroist attacks I also write poetry which began in 1998 after my
Dad Died Unexpectedly Writing For Me Is Great Therapy Idied unexpectedly Writing for me is great therapy I times of solitude to get centered Does anything in nature despair except man September 15th I feel inadeuate I have made an open place a place for meditation What if I cannot find myself inside itFor a The Organ Grinders long time now every meeting with another human being has been a collision I feel too much sense too much am exhausted by the reverberations after even the simplest conversation But the deep collision is and has been with my unregenerate tormenting and tormented self I have written every poem every novel for the same purpose to find out what I think to know where I stand I am unable to become what I seeSeptember 16thI make the uestionsI also give the answersNaturallySeptember 17th It was a strange relationship for he knew next to nothing about myife really yet below all the talk we recognized each other as the same kind He enjoyed my anger as much as I enjoyed his Perhaps that was part of it Deep down there was understanding not of the facts of our ives so much as Of Our Essential NaturesSeptember 20th our essential naturesSeptember 20th is something demoralizing about watching two people get and crazy about each other especially when you are the only extra person in the room It s ike watching Paris from an express caboose heading in the opposite direction every second the city gets smaller and smaller only you feel it s really you getting smaller and smaller and The Complete Idiot's Guide to Detoxing Your Body lonelier andonelier rushing away from all those Silver in the Wood lights and excitement at about a million miles an hour PSeptember 22ndI amosing the ability to hold a conversation with people My voice drowns My mind wanders I am holding on to those written words clinging to them ike they were the ast piece of wood of a fragile boat that the sea swallowed before I am holding on to that ast trace of whatever it is that makes me humanbut what are we ooking May Sarton 1912 1995 was a The Second Cure lesbian writer Born in Belgium her family escaped to England when Archduke Franz Ferdinand was assassinated in 1914 the incident that triggered the First World War One yearater her family moved again this time to Boston In 1945 she met her partner for 13 years Judy Matlack She wrote many poetry novels and non fiction books but she was most known for her memoirs This book Journal of a Solitude is said to be her bestThis memoir includes almost daily entries of her Essential Andhra Cookbook: With Hyderabadi and Telengana Specialities life for the span of one year 1972 1973 The title is about her preference to be alone when she writes poetry theiterature form she ikes best I am still to see a poetry book by her but I have a feeling that most of her poems are sad because this book is also sad Don t get me wrong though she is not a hermit iving alone in a cabin a hermit Eagle's Gate living alone in a cabin the middle of the woods In the book she mentioned about her visitors tooike my favorite Virginia Woolf also a World War Z. La guerra mondiale degli zombi lesbian and other writers whose names just don t ring a bell In fact I did not know anything about May Sarton until this book Thanks to the 501 Must Read Books for recommending this to meSarton was 60 when she wrote this book It was just two years after her partner for 13 years died So naturally she was still grieving However she did not men. I am here alone for the first time in weeks May Sarton begins this book to take up my 'real'ife again at ast That is what is strange that friends even passionate oveare not my real ife unless there is time alon. Tion her grief in the book denial trying to forget Rather she made herself busy doing the household chores tend to her garden teaching at the university and meeting with her friends Superficially everything seems to be ordinary except that when you read her journals you know that she is still deeply hurt inside Then since she was a good poet based on what I read in her journals her words were Don't Worry, Eat Cake: A Coloring Book to Help You Feel a Little Bit Better about Everything lyrical and heartfelt if not magical I think those are what make this book reallyoved by women who are feminists andor overs of good iterature Think of Anne Frank at 60 who knows how to write good poetry and instead of hiding inside the ibrary her emotions are the ones hidden inside her heart and poured out only via the choicest and the most beautiful rhythmic versesMy favorite part is about Perley Cole his gardener Widowed by his wife due to her ong illness he had to continue working tending Sarton s garden He died in the ambulance and he had no service and was cremated Sarton writes It is the A Secret Kept loneliest dying and theoneliest death I ever heard of How many times he has said to me in these ast months I never thought it would end ike this How is one to accept such a death What have we come to when people are shoveled away as if that whole ife of hard work dignity self respect could be discarded at the end ike an old beer canI The Ancient Greeks: Ten Ways They Shaped the Modern World liked this book I read this book over a couple of weeks as journal entries need to be read a few at a time for me in order to maintain freshness May Sartonived alone for a year in her house in New Hampshire but it was not exactly in solitude She maintained a pretty full schedule of speaking engagements vacations and visits with friends not to mention all of the visitors she entertained and the neighbors she enjoyed Her journal entries over the year were very honest and full of insights I Tricycle (HISTOIRE) ll be reading beginning with Plant Dreaming Deep which concerns the time before 1973 when this one was written I savored this one over the span of five months it s so rich in insight that it s best read just a few pages at a time A poet and novelist Belgian by origin but a New Englander by choice Sarton 1912 1995 is now remembered primarily for her overtlyesbian works eg Mrs Stevens Hears the Mermaids Singing Journal of a Solitude is a one year account of her writing ife in New Hampshire mostly covering the frigid winter of 1970 1 when Sarton was also struggling with depression The book dwells on the seasonal patterns of the natural world shovelling snow gardening caring for animals but also the rhythms of the soul rising in hope but also falling into occasional inevitable despair Am I too old to acuire the knack for happiness she wondersI ve been a full time freelance writer for nearly a year now and prone to melancholy for much onger so I can certainly relate to Sarton s descriptions of both the Let Freedom Reign': The Words of Nelson Mandela. Henry Russell loneliness and the exhilarating freedom of the writer sife People who have regular jobs can have no idea of just this problem of ordering a day that has no pattern imposed on it from without She wisely notes the necessity of both isolation and community for any creative spirit a balance between the need to become oneself and to give of oneself I took inspiration from her assertion that being a writer is a noble endeavor a means of creating the soul afresh Each day and the Paper Crafts Magazine: Joy of Card Making (Leisure Arts living of it has to be a conscious creation Myibrary copy is bristling with red Post it flags I found ines that grabbed me on nearly library copy is bristling with red Post it flags I found ines that grabbed me on nearly third page There are almost too many brilliant uotes for me to copy out I ve bought my own secondhand paperback instead As Italo Calvino opined during unenforced readingyou will come across the book which will become your book Your classic is a book to which you cannot remain indifferent and which helps you define yourself in relation or even in opposition to it If that s the case Journal of a Solitude is on the top shelf in my personal ibrary of classics Next up will be her Collected Poems then perhaps Mrs Stevens I have now spent 3 months reading Sarton s journal of a year of her ife in Nelson New Hampshire a journal which reflects her Rudram in Tamil love of the old colonial home and the vast gardens she had cultivated there her nightly skirmishes withocal wildlife who wanted home access raccoon feral cats the neighbors who tended to her and and road her flowers and pets her many friends acuaintances and above all perhaps her writing Sarton also exposes her *Core Her Occasional Bouts *her occasional bouts depression her ecstasy upon creating a poem or seeing the perfect sky or perfect flower in just the right beam of ight We KaBOOM!: One Entrepreneur's Quest to Build Community SAVE PLAY! learn of her belief in feminism her homosexuality and something of her relationships her uasi religious beliefs as she does not fit herself into any belief system past acuaintance with Virginia Woolf and othersWhat aife she ed And the year of this journal was in fact a transition year for her as she contemplated and ultimately accepted her status as a solitude She provides what for me is an essential description of this meaning for her From August 27th entry There is no doubt that solitude is a challenge and to maintain balance within it a precarious business But I must not forget that for me being with people or even with one beloved person for any ength of time without solitude is even worse I ose my center I feel dispersed scattered in pieces I must have time alone in which to mull over any encounter and to extract its juice its essence to understand what has really happened to me as a conseuence of it oc 2045And she writes in her final entry of this journal on September 30 I begin to have intimations now of a return to some deep self that has been too absorbed and too battered to function for a Who on God's Earth do you 'think' you are?: A true story about TRANSCENDING the ILLUSION of SEPARATION long time That self tells me that I was meant toive alone meant to write the poems for others poems that seldom in my ife have reached the one person for whom they were intended oc 2188Here she does not wallow she sees the reality of her Mesagerul life and experience and accepts the future and what she will do with it go forth and writeThere are moments also of humor moments of beauty moments of reflection about friends who areiving Judy Blume: Fearless Storyteller for Teens life well or with difficulty and always there is nature and the garden From May 23 It is a catastrophe to have five baby woodchucks under the barn though they are adorableike small toy bears Of course they have eaten down the holly hocks But I take these disasters philosophically than I used to I am earning not to take it too personally I guess and not to mind failure The garden is growth and change and that means oss as well as constant new treasures to make up for a few. E in which to explore what is happening or what has happened In this journal she says I hope to break through into the rough rocky depthsto the matrix itself There is violence there and anger never resolved My need.
SUMMARY Journal of a SolitudeDisasters The blue pansies are wonderful this year Blue is the most exciting color in the garden I think And these blues are everywhere now Virginia bluebells grape hyacinths blue primroses and wood anemones Soon there will be bluebells in the ittle wood and wild phlox here and there Jimmy: The Terrorist loc 1621This one brief paragraph takes her from potential despair to aesson How to Live the James Bond Lifestyle: The Complete Seminar learned from nature to an observation of beauty to anticipation of beauty to come Is it any wonder that I have savored this readingThere is really so much here Obviously there is insight into theife of a poet dealing with her own More scary stories for sleep-overs lovesosses and ife There is also discussion of some of the important influences on her ife and work both the people and her emotional and philosophical underpinningsVery highly recommendedA copy of this book was received from the publisher through NetGalley in return for an honest review 45 starsThoreau found it in Massachusetts Dillard found it in Virginia May Sarton found it in New Hampshire Solitude Whatever peace I know rests in the natural world in feeling myself a part of it Her prose is the embodiment of solitude slow paced thought provokingHow can what seems Heads of the Colored People like nonsensical talk be so transformative Clever contemplation helps This is prose you savor otherwise you miss something within the sentences At times it isike reading poetry see the words digest them allow them to infect you with their poison Read this book while you re alone and you feel the aloneness you smell the flowers sense the pain Read it around noise and the book not the noise is irritating For the book is silent slow moving so perceptive that it taunts your noisy environment In this house the ight has always been a presence right now in a brilliant blue green band on the sofa in the cozy room A half hour ago it spotlit a pot of yellow chrysanthemums in there I ook out at trees eafless now except for one maple where high up against the blue there is still branch after branch of translucent warm gold The eaves sift down one by one ike notes in music This is the ight we have been deprived of this ueer autumn of tropical rains and gray skies and it is good to have a taste of it Light sun flowers a eafless tree Leaves resembling musical notes as they fall How does she do this savoring the moment with the solitude s eye so that I the reader am forced to do the same For starters it is all jotted down in journal form as it occurs This is effective which is why I find myself irritated when I try to read it in anyplace else but silence She is on a pilgrimage inward This is really what this book is about This pilgrimage inward The act of etting go of oneself in order to find one s self It is the contemplation of a tortured soul The self exploration of mind body and spirit Virginia Woolf is called upon a few times in this narrative of part feminine discourse she was one of Sarton s writing idols Scary when you think of it because we know how it all ended for Woolf and Sarton discusses clinical depression at great ength in this book Nonetheless introspection coupled with observation dazzles An island of tall fir and spruce of many colored soft mosses blueberry patches and a ong open meadow that rolls down to a salt water pool We come here to a timeless world steeped in tradition where for a week or so we are sheltered by the safety and comfort of the Victorian era when the many roomed shingled ark of a house was built by Anne s father in the 1890 s We come back to all the familiar joys sitting on our balcony to watch the silent sails glide past up the Sound and the ever changing clouds and The Interior Landscape: Love Poems from a Classical Tamil Anthology light and shadow on the water and on the hills gathering mussels or blueberries for supper making bunches of wildflowers finding tiny trees and cushions of moss for Japanese gardens to be created when we are home again going to bed with a candle up the great staircase there is no electricity sinking into our twin beds and talking for hours side by side before we fall asleep She blasts me withyricism Longevity, Senescence, and the Genome like this and it doesn t matter that I m a thirty something and she is a fifty something because when she plays I am singing her song It does matter that I too have experienced this solitude that she speaks of intentional moments of introspection and seclusion in the teeny town I ve called my temporary home I read and I know that it is necessary to reuire solitude at my age just as it is necessary for Sarton to still ponder seek and wander at her age I only wish that the seeking could have had some resolution But really does it need to or am Ieaning on her story for my own trajectory Maybe it is as she says we write toward what we will become from where we are One must believe that private dilemmas are if deeply examined universal and so if expressed have a human value beyond the private and one must also believe in the vehicle for expressing them in the talent The author s fixation on flowers and fluffy critters coupled with her intense depressive streak results in a journal that often reads ike Mary Engelbreit having a bad day A really bad day Never having been much for nature poetry nature s pretty nature s nice I ve just never felt the urge to rhapsodize it and I can t get behind poets who do I found it difficult to relate This was disappointing as I do identify with much of what she talks about here the ovehate relationship with solitude For a First You Fall: A Kevin Connor Mystery long time now every meeting with another human being has been a collision I feel too much sense too much am exhausted by the reverberations after even the simplest conversation But the deep collision is and has been with my unregenerate tormenting and tormented self she writes and man do I hear her on that her struggles with rage and her need to uestion and examine her experiences Overall though it hit something of a flat note for me again possibly because the setting and motifs she chooses for her thematic preoccupations aren t really my bag But the woman gets mad props for being in herate fifties at the time she wrote this and announcing that she still doesn t have it figured out still finds peace and calm elusive With
The Main Goal Of Adultmain goal of adult seeming to be that of being okay or at east preserving this appearance at all costs I have a ot of okay or at east preserving this appearance at all costs I have a ot of for her refusal to do this Sarton writes brave honest prose Notes from a Young Black Chef laced with beautiful tender moments with people and animals including sheeps While I didn t have the deep soul connection with this book that I wanted and expected to have it s an inspiring study in one intensely sensitive person s efforts to brave worlds outer and inner and chronicle her experiences. To be alone is balanced against my fear of what will happen when suddenly I enter the huge empty silence if I cannot find support thereIn this book we are closer to the marrow than ever before in May Sarton's writin.